Why do I drink, I ask myself? Certain members of my family just do not understand, and they hold it against me. They think that if I didn't drink then I would have recovered from PFS by now. That is NOT the case. I have done bloody well, even if I do say so myself. Propecia has robbed me of MASSIVE elements of my life. I have no social life, romantic life, professional life and I can now no longer have the children that I so desperately wanted. So I drink to pass the time. I only have 4 pints of lager and a glass of wine a day. I prefer drinking the wine socially with my mum and dad. This time last year I was drinking 8 pints of lager and a bottle of wine during the day then going to the pub with my dad on an evening for another 2 or 3 pints of beer. Now that WAS alcoholism. I wouldn't say I'm an alcoholic now as I drink in moderation.
I try to do something helpful on the farm everyday before I start on the lager. I don't get drunk, far from it. I drink the lager over the course of several hours and I dilute it down 50:50 with lemonade. I guess it's a substitute for all the missing elements. It is only the love of my parents, certain select members of my family and few good friends that keep me here. To the haters and the blackmailers I say "fuck you"; get your own lives in order before you criticise mine. I am not harming anyone. So there.
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