The sauce

Why do I drink, I ask myself? Certain members of my family just do not understand, and they hold it against me. They think that if I didn't drink then I would have recovered from PFS by now. That is NOT the case. I have done bloody well, even if I do say so myself. Propecia has robbed me of MASSIVE elements of my life. I have no social life, romantic life, professional life and I can now no longer have the children that I so desperately wanted. So I drink to pass the time. I only have 4 pints of lager and a glass of wine a day. I prefer drinking the wine socially with my mum and dad. This time last year I was drinking 8 pints of lager and a bottle of wine during the day then going to the pub with my dad on an evening for another 2 or 3 pints of beer. Now that WAS alcoholism. I wouldn't say I'm an alcoholic now as I drink in moderation.

I try to do something helpful on the farm everyday before I start on the lager. I don't get drunk, far from it. I drink the lager over the course of several hours and I dilute it down 50:50 with lemonade. I guess it's a substitute for all the missing elements. It is only the love of my parents, certain select members of my family and few good friends that keep me here. To the haters and the blackmailers I say "fuck you"; get your own lives in order before you criticise mine. I am not harming anyone. So there.

Nothing specific

Here we go again! I’m not sure what I am blogging about to be honest. I have just woken up. It is 4.30 am. I don’t sleep properly anymore, and all my dreams are disturbed and just, well, WEIRD. Once I am awake, that’s it…..can’t go back to sleep. Everything has changed since taking, and quitting the Finasteride. EVERYTHING. Not in a GOOD way….in a BAD way. My life is a shell now. I don’t live, I EXIST. All my dreams and aspirations? GONE.

Finding a life partner? Gone. Having children? Gone. Becoming a success professionally and becoming a property developer? Gone. Setting myself up financially for retirement? Gone. Blah blah blah. Don’t worry it’s just MY LIFE that has been DESTROYED. I have no-one to provide for you see, no woman, no kids. Just me. On my own. Forever. This is my fate. All because I wanted to keep the hair on the top of my head. All because I believed Merck’s MISINFORMATION about the side effects being reversible. All because Merck WITHHELD information about Propecia that they did not want us, the trusting consumer to know about. I won’t go into it here, it’s all on my website propeciamaycausecancer.co.uk. They are utter bastards. They really are. They do NOT want YOU to know the TRUTH about Propecia. And their host of other toxins masquerading as “medication”.

All truth passes through three stages. First, it is ridiculed. Second, it is violently opposed. Third, it is accepted as being self evident. Well. We are at stage two. Merck are VIOLENTLY OPPOSING the TRUTH about their hair loss medication Propecia. I have just done an interview and photoshoot with my local paper, the Evening Gazette. The story was ready to go to print. It was a good article by a good journalist, it stressed the horrific mental side effects of Propecia. I wanted to warn other people in my local area about the side effects of this HORRIFIC drug. I CARE about PEOPLE. And, low and behold, guess what? Yep, the Merck legal department stopped the article from being published by threatening to sue them. They reckon that I cannot PROVE that Propecia did this to ME. I can’t I guess. No-one with PFS can. But we KNOW. Us PFS victims. It’s as plain as day. This is how Merck win. We can’t prove anything. Damn. But we will get to stage three. Eventually. The truth will become self evident. Trust me.

So this is my angle. EDUCATION. Expose Merck for what they are. Expose Kenneth “C” Frazier for what he is. Expose Propecia for what it is. We will get there. Oh yes. There is more than one way to skin a cat. I am sorry. For sounding angry. Forgive me but I have had EVERYTHING stripped from me…..and I mean fucking EVERYTHING. So excuse the anger. Where is my woman? Where are my kids? I’ll tell you where? NOWHERE. Murder. Plain and simple. Population control at its most fundamental level. Merck are a STRANGE organisation. Why? Because their CEO Kenneth “C” Frazier is a STRANGE man. He PERTAINS to care. He doesn’t. His attitude rubs off on the organisation’s attitude towards fellow HUMAN BEINGS. I really feel sorrow for this sad man. Where has his morality gone? Has he sold his soul (if he has one), for money? For power? Sad. Sad. Sad. Enough about that “human” it’s not worth the effort.

This will do me for now. I have more to say. Much more.

Well here goes….my first “blog”....as promised. Propecia. Not JUST Propecia. ALL drugs; to a greater or lesser degree. Let’s have it right. Merck. Not just Merck. ALL pharma giants; to a greater or lesser degree. Let’s have it right. The WHOLE of the pharma industry. Corruption. Exploitation of the trusting minions. Politics. The dysfunctional, purposeless, useless, lame FDA. Profiteering. Corporate-lead governance. Lies. Disinformation. Propaganda. Spurious concern for fellow humans. “Be well”.....”for mothers”....”no woman should die giving birth”. FAKE. FAKE. FAKE.

MON£Y! That’s what it’s ALL about. Nevermind inflicting suffering and pain and death on fellow humankind. PROFIT. Negative side effects? BURIED; Vioxx. Nuvaring. Zilpaterol. Gardasil. Dutasteride, Proscar. Propecia. Fosamax. Accutane. Yaz! To name but a few. Added together? Suffering. Death. Shortened life span. Blindness. Repartitioning. Blood clots, strokes, heart attacks, liver dysfunction, jaw necrosis (rot), snapped femurs, cancers, emotional disorders, behavioural disorders and changes, cognitive impairment, suicides, permanent impotence, psychosis, destroyed ovaries, infertility, shrunken genitalia, severe depression, deformed offspring. These are just the tip of the iceberg there are HUNDREDS more SERIOUS side effects that go with these poisons.

The system DOESN’T WORK. It doesn’t protect the consumer. It serves government and the pharma industry. The Pharma giants DON’T GIVE A FUCK about you. Nor do YOUR government. They pretend they do but, sadly they don’t. They want you ON THEIR DRUGS. They want you to STAY ON THEIR DRUGS. Even if the so-called “cure” is worse than the disease. More often than not, that IS the case.

Six years ago, I took a drug for hair-loss called Propecia. The manufacturer of this SHIT medication reassured me that it was a safe drug to take. They said that if I suffered from any of the side effects then I could just stop taking it and I would return to normal They LIED, and they LIED BIG. My life is now DESTROYED. I was a perfectly normal, physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually and spiritually well human being. My mates knew that. I was a “sound” gadgey. You know the story from my website propeciamaycausecancer.co.uk. Merck did this to ME. They took me to living, breathing HELL ON EARTH. I ended up in the mental hospital and attempted to take my own life. I lost my girlfriend, my businesses, my sexual, emotional, spiritual and physical health and my MIND. They KNEW the severity of the side effects but they buried them. The FDA allows the pharma companies to do their own (blatantly biased) testing. All the negative “shit” is buried. The system allows this. The FDA is a JOKE!

These aren’t dodgy cars being sold here, these are dodgy DRUGS. We are talking about the well being and lives of fellow humans. They want to put these toxins inside YOUR body. LIVES. PEOPLE.

The U.S.A. has 17 TRILLION dollars of national debt. Obama relies heavily on the U.S.A.’s big pharma corporations to generate much-needed revenue. Kenneth “C” Frazier sits on Obama’s export council. They are friends. Frazier heads up Merck Pharma, the creator of many of the notorious drugs listed above. He was chief litigator for the famous Vioxx (Merck) drugs scandal; a painkiller that was proven to have killed many of tens of thousands of people. It was Frazier’s job to ensure that the families of the dead Vioxx victims got a measly amount of compensation. He did a good job, Merck having to pay out approximately one tenth of the predicted compo ($4 billion instead of $50 billion). He is proud of that fact. This represents the sinister and uncompassionate philosophy of his organisation. This guy Frazier is hypocritical enough to sit in the board of governors of a Christian fellowship. He is no Christian. He had the audacity to make a speech about company morals and ethics at a legal fraternity gathering. Rather like Adolf Hitler preaching about human rights. This guy is FAKE. Martin Luther King jr. and Nelson Mandela would be ashamed of this “brother”. It is a sad state of affairs when a guy with a sketchy legal background becomes the C.E.O. of a massive pharma company such as Merck. Why a legal guy and not a medical guy? BECAUSE THEY HAVE THAT MANY BAD PRODUCTS THAT DEMAND CONSTANT LEGAL DEFENCE! That’s why.

Here we have it. My theory. Controversial! Obama turns a blind eye to his nations bad drugs for the sake of his economy. The FDA chief, Margaret A. Hamburg was chosen as a lapdog because she wouldn’t rock the boat, so to speak. Basically, she is a PUSSYCAT. Drugs are only pulled off the market when they are PROVEN to be KILLING PEOPLE, like Vioxx, and even then the evil Pharma giants like Merck will try to deny any causal link between its poisons and the deaths. They fought tooth and nail to keep Vioxx on the shelves. Now there’s compassion.

This is how the Pharma industry currently operates, in brief. A drug is devised. Testing is done by “biostitutes” (“scientific prostitutes” that portray the drug in a spuriously positive light for BLOOD MONEY; hundreds of thousands of dollars usually) read; SCUM. Calculations are done; A) How much revenue will the drug generate; B) How much compensation will they have to pay out because of the associated legal and compensation costs to potential dead victims families or to people who have had their lives ruined because of their drug. If A is greater than B, then the drug is released onto the market. That is cynicism at its most EVIL level. The negative side effects are buried and the joke of an organisation; the FDA pass the drug, pretty much as a matter of course. The F.D.A. are NOT ACTING IN YOUR BEST INTERESTS. They work for Obama. Vioxx slipped through the net. The net is full of MASSIVE, GAPING HOLES. But it could be repairable.

What a price to pay for the consumer, the average guy in the street, putting his trust in the pharma industry and his local doctor. The plain fact of the matter is that your local doctor is kept in the dark regarding the negative side effects of drugs as much as we are. Like I said before the system allows this shit to happen. I believe it should be every doctors moral and ethical DUTY to read the book “Bad Pharma” by Ben Goldacre…..an excellent read about the failings of the modern pharma industry and how the system is FAILING the consumer. These doctors need to wise up, they are offered incentives by the pharma giants to promote their products. This shouldn’t be allowed to happen.

How can the system be fixed? I believe the drugs regulators (the F.D.A. and British equivalent) should do INDEPENDENT drugs trials and that the pharma giants should fund these tests. ALL side effects should be disclosed in an open and honest manner. Comparative test results between similar drugs should be disclosed and the regulator should write the patient information leaflet (P.I.L.) instead of the biased pharma giants. THAT IS HOW THE SYSTEM SHOULD FUNCTION. SIMPLE!